In Supernatural, since Amara matured she is finding Him to settle scores. She is trying to get the attention of God.
To call/get the attention of Him she has
- Killed many people.
- Prays in church.
- Killed people in the church.
Also when she catches Lucifer she told him that she will torture him because he is a favourite of God and he will come to save him.
From this, it is clear that Amara wants to meet Him (The God/Chuck).
But in S11 E21 Chuck (God) says that
She's warded herself specifically against me.
Why did Amara (darkness) ward herself if she is desperately trying to find him?