In The Queen's Gambit, Beth promised to pay him back $10 if she won her tournament but never sent the money or paid him a visit. She criticized the media for leaving him out of publication, leaving me to believe she cared for his part in her life, but why hadn’t she thought to return?
Miss Harmon had a busy life; full steam ahead. She went from orphan to hero. Its rags to riches theme is the reason we enjoy it so. Time was really of the essence for Beth. Go go go. Her mother, hesitant at first, soon realised her potential and encouraged her to go here there and everywhere, all whilst sampling the top booze everywhere she went. I don’t believe it ever occurred to Beth to pay the money the back, not because she didn’t love him, but because she had another two thousand things to think about. She had to study hard too, reading and ingesting as much as possible in order to succeed.
As for her insistence on mentioning his name in the article, yes, she cared for him. She did also feel awful (as explained in his lacking funeral). She wanted the world to know that this was the best janitor in the universe! One who loved her, taught her. Beth would hope internally that this would be satisfactory for Mr. Shaibel looking down on her in the world.
Anger and fear. After the episode with the pills, they refused to let her go to the basement to play chess with Mr. Sheibel. This obviously hurt her deeply, and she begged him to help her out and he didn't. She grew to hate the plsce. Show also had an affection for him... A feeling which causes fear and anxiety in her. She often pushed everyone she likes out of her life so she could stay emotionally safe.